I'll try.

There is no person in the world who is made to handle every punch that’s thrown at them. We aren’t made that way. In fact, we’re made to get mad, upset, sad, be hurt, stumble and fall. We aren’t supposed to be able to handle everything. But that’s what makes us stronger in the end. By learning from the things that hurt us most.

I'M ABSOLUTELY POSITIVELY SURE THAT T1W5 WILL BE A MUCH BETTER WEEK THAN T1W4.

Though I don't really know why but, yea, I'm just going to live the week ahead regardless of how much it's going to suck or how much I'm going to cry or regardless of how many other girls you're going to be with again and all that crap. Yea. I'm really okayyyy.

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The sun is going to shine and the rain is going to fall. In the end, you might get burnt or wet, but that’s life. So dance in the puddles and bathe in the sun. At the end of the day, smile. Everything is going to be alright.

Smile because it didn't happen, so it didn't hurt as much.

Don't worry.

Sometimes you just need to cry and be sad. You need to break down and be torn apart. You need to learn now to pick yourself up and put yourself back together. Sometimes, the only way to be happy is to give into sadness first, cause without sadness, there’s no happiness, you would never learn to smile.

It's over. Haiyo it didn't even start lah, but life isn't meant to be a story book full of pretty words and predictable plots anyways, and people are meant to expect the unexpected because things aren't always what they seem, and because it's often that there's so much more to something than you think there is. There's so much I've learned from this, so I guess that's really all that matters. :) It didn't last long, but it wasn't bound to last forever anyways.

Don't worry, I'm gonna keep smiling 'cos life's a beautiful thing & there's so much to smile about :)

This is when I step in.

No, I'm not allowing any of us to ruin what's meant to be enjoyable for our juniors.
No, I'm not allowing whatever which happened between you guys during that overseas trip ruin anything at all.

There's just way to much shit going on in my life right now. The only time I really smile is when you look at me or when I see you or when you say hi to me or when you text me really sweet stuff.

So thank you for being my only source of comfort :)

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It's too late to catch me now.
At least the happiness was well spent. At least it was spent with you. I love you, but this is goodbye.

These days I feel so much happier.

Maybe the truth is, there’s a little bit of a loser in all of us. Being happy isn’t having everything in your life be perfect. Maybe it’s about stringing together all the little things.

-Eleanor

T1W3 has been an lovely week. Woop woop there are far too many things to be happy about & thankful for. Hehehe love 2010! :) Gosh I've got 4 tests next week & quite a lot of homework to complete, so I guess I'll be staying home during the weekends to study + do the milestones for v day preparation stuff. Ohohoh, choir's having their own CNY cum valentine's day booth for both the upcoming occasions & we'll be selling some really sweet stuff so come support us yea, hehe.


Byeeee! :D

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I'm good I'm gone.

it started with a low light.

At some point you have to make a decision. Boundaries don’t keep other people out; they fence you in. Life is messy, that’s how we’re made. So you can waste your life drawing lines or you can live your life crossing them. But there are some lines that are way too dangerous to cross. Here’s what I know, If you’re willing to take a chance, the view from the other side is spectacular.

-Meredith (Grey's Anatomy)

HAH I UNINVITED YOU FROM MY BLOG SO YOU CAN'T READ WHAT I'VE TYPED IN MY POSTS. You can't even read this. Hoho take that :D

2010 has been a greeeeaat year so far. I think the last time I was ever this happy was in the year 2008 or something. Yea :) Hm, sometimes I don't really know why I like to get myself involved in such complications and why I care so much about other people and how they feel. Somehow I just want them to be happy :) So I do all I can to help. But sometimes I overdo and over-want it, which is bad, so I guess it's time that I learn to take a few steps back and away from it. Whatever will be will be yea.

I like 202, I think the people there are really approachable and friendly. :D

Choir feels rather torn apart, but I don't really know why. There's just too much bitching going around, and it really sucks to be completely clueless as to what on earth is going on. It just feels as though every second that I'm in the choir room or when I'm around certain choir members, I've got to watch my back and what I say to a large extent because when something wrong is said and done, the stares start to come. It has never felt this way but yea, oh well. Just hope things will change for the better :/

I'm off to tumblr and then I'll go offline and start studying.

Byeeeee :)

Everyone says within time, things heal. But that’s not true.
Time only lets you push it in the back of your mind and learn to deal with it, but the pain stays.

:O

In the computer lab now :) HuiWen's sitting next to me now, woop woop! TODAY HAS BEEN A BEEYOOTEEFUL DAY. Sigh, but my skin's getting dry & I forgot to bring my moisturizer. Yea bye.

hi

Okay I thought about it.

Hm, why should I be affected by this one little incident, right? I'm not a delicate little flower. I'm like a gigantic leaf or something like a vine that's so huge and so strong that even when someone sosososo heavy clings onto me for perhaps more than an hour or one longlong day, or even the entire year, I'd never break apart. YES I AM THAT STRONG.

Hoho.

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“Communication. It’s the first thing we really learn in life. Funny thing is, once we grow up, learn our words and really start talking the harder it becomes to know what to say. Or how to ask for what we really need.”

— Meredith (Grey’s Anatomy)

(U)

Should I text him? I've not said anything to him for almost an entire week :( Yesterday when he was with the group of guys who were talking to me, he said nothing at all. All he did was look around like he couldn't be bothered about anything at all. And then when he looks at me and smiles I don't really know why but it seemed so vague :/ Coughcoughs said not to text him until he initiates a conversation first. And ahemahem says that he's a complete flirt who texts many girls at one time.

WAHLAO EH :(

Forget it.

And yes orientation 2010 is finally over. Happy happy!

tomorrow

School starts tomorrow and I really am not sure if the day will turn out as great as I'd want it to be.
The committee's supposed to report in school by 6am, which means that I'll have to be up by 5 :o
Homework's done! (: So that leaves me with something less to worry about hehehe.

Nothing much to blog about so yea, bye (:

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Why would I carry such a weight on my shoulders?
Why do I always help you carry your boulders?
You wonder why I carry such a weight on my shoulders.
And why would I? It's such a load.
Holding back. Clenching my fists. Pursing my lips. Cracking my toe knuckles. Pondering. Worrying. Wanting to text you. Thinking of you.

Happy new year!

Spent yesterday with Colin, Colin's sister, Colin's sister's friend, Denise, Aderic, LumYi, Annabelle, and Annabelle's brother :) Went bowling @ superbowl, went to Colin's, watched some movies, then karaoke, watched the countdown @ marina bay on tv (which sucked) so we switched to the countdown on channel 8, then there was the surprise party! :) Thank you thank you thank you to Colin, Denise, LumYi & Annabelle! :D Oh yea I got into 202, yay!

New year resolutions for the year 2010:

1. Blog only thrice a week. :/ And don't blog 2 whole months before examinations start. :)

2. Top 10 in class by the end of the year (?) :O I know it isn't as easy as it seems but I'll put in hell a lot of effort into this. Really!

3. Get into choir comm (I know ahemahemahem is against it but, it's something I want. Why not, right?).

4. Do well in debate! (Yea, I thought I quit but somehow I haven't. Crap. :/ But since I'm already in it, might as well do well in it right? Right! :D)

5. Don't cry so much anymore!

6. Don't flare up as often anymore :O

7. Be happy, don't post such emotional posts anymore! :D

I don’t care if I end up disappointed, I just want to have the guts to take risks.

Anyways, happy 2010 guys! (: