AHHHHHHHHH x2

Came back from school 45 mins ago.
Shit this week has been horrendous :(

Liren says I'm as stupid and blur as a blond (Yea and at the same time thinks I'm the best speaker among the sec 1s -_-) and JunYi gave me 5 debate demerit points for being immature wthhhhhhhhhhhh meaning I HAVE TO SPEAK 5 MORE ROUNDS.

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I honestly just need someone to talk to. Now.

Jasper and I have not been talking since 3 weeks ago...
Zhangyi and I have been talking but its just, the feeling isn't there anymore..
NICHOLAS LIM AND I DON'T EVEN TALK ANYMORE.

I don't know what is happening :(

And honestly,
I don't think I'll receive all or even like 2/4 of the files from the SLs tomorrow. Perhaps even if I do receive all or even 3/4 of the files, the decoration will simply be last minute and not up to standard work. Not that I'm being pessimistic but what can I say when even an exco doesn't wanna do the file? Sigh. I know sec 3s are stressed out by the way.

Gah. You know, I'm trying my best. I'm prioritizing my commitments and etc etc but I just keep failing. ITS LIKE NOTHING EVER WORKS OUT EVEN WHEN I TRY SO HARD TO PREVENT THINGS FROM FALLING APART. LIKE THIS STUPID SHIT FEELING OKAY. AND NO ONE UNDERSTANDS, NOT EVEN MY CLOSEST FRIENDS. NO ONE IS COOPERATING. EVEN WHEN THEY HELP, THEY JUST MAKE THINGS WORSE.

AND NOW I SCREAMMMMMMMMMMMM
I CRYYYYYYYYYYYYY
BUT WHAT'S THE USEEEEEEEE.

I'm going crazy.
Shittt.
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Well at least I've done a good job today as banner IC for the day on Sherlyn's behalf I guess. I honestly honestly honestly seriously seriously seriously thank Kristie for not just making herself available but useful as well. The fact that she was there and wasn't slacking away like the other comm members just made me feel good.

Sigh bye.