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Smiling on the outside.
But deep down on the inside,
I'm sick and tired of myself. And so I need to start anew.
I'm still not used to being this lonely. And so I shall find new friends.
I'm sick and tired of everyone. And so I shall learn to not be tired of everyone.
I'm sick and tired of always having to deal with you and your problems. And so I won't.
I'm sick and tired of always having to put up with you and your crap. And so I won't.
I'm sick and tired of always being used to your advantage. And so I won't let you, not anymore.
I'm sick and tired of receiving your texts and having to know how or what you feel about her because honestly, I don't give a shit about you or your life.
I'm sick and tired of playing along with people who put words in my mouth.
I'm sick and tired of putting up with people who've been making wrong accusations about me.
I'm sick and tired of having your problems become mine.
I'm sick and tired of answering your phone calls just to keep you happy.
I'm sick and tired of always having to put you and your happiness before mine.
I'm sick and tired of always being asked if I'm okay.
I'm sick and tired of doing things for the benefit of others, only to have myself suffer in the end.
I'm sick and tired of suffering in silence.
I'm sick of school, expectations, needing, wanting, hoping.
I'm sick and tired of being called emotional.
I'm sick and tired of crying in silence, in that empty bedroom.
I'm sick and tired of bottling up.
I'm sick and tired of always having to look at the both of you in a distance.
I'm sick and tired of telling other people that I am okay even when I am not.
I'm sick and tired of telling other people that I am not affected by you being with her because I am.
I'm sick and tired of telling other people that it doesn't hurt anymore because it still does.

Everything hurts. The truth hurts. This hurts. That hurts.
And I'm sick and tired of the hurt.