life is great, really!

One thing I've come to realize:
You shouldn't have a complete reliance on someone to break your day, or let one sudden unfortunate happening be the sole reason for your mood/day to be ruined, or let one flaw of somebody ruin the overall impression you have of that person. Because that happening took place in a split second, and each day has 24 hours, because you know your world doesn't revolve around that one person, and because there definitely is so much more than just that one flaw to that person. It all depends on your outlook you have in life, it all depends on your mindset. It all depends on you. And, don't let one mistake bring you down or hold you back from going on, because you know that you can learn from that mistake. And because you know that everyone makes mistakes and nobody's perfect, nobody's flawless.

I can't really explain how I've been feeling these days
Basically, now I see a glass as half full instead of half empty
Which is good, right? :)

Nostalgic

Gosh I miss Hannah, and Alfreda too!

holidays holidays holidays

Important

1. Kaleidoscope sectionals/combined intensives/intensives
2. June camp
3. Revise semester 1 stuff
4. Read up on semester 2 stuff beforehand
5. HOMEWORK.

Spent the later part of yesterday at my cousin's house playing Guitar Hero and Halo :P There weren't enough controllers so we took turns via winner in loser out. Built an enormous (okay not really) castle with Lego blocks together with Sarah while waiting for my turn to play, then we had dinner and after dinner we walked to uhhhhh whatever that place was for ice-cream! :D Yesterday was fun fun fun. There really is a lot of homework to do over the holidays, and I don't plan to start on it anytime soon :P BUT I HAVE TO. Okay bye.

(:

Problems, stress accumulating.
Feeling unprepared
Afraid of what's to come
Finding fault in the smallest of things
I've been thinking too much about what ifs
But now I've come to realize
its best to live in the moment.

I won't give up.
You built me up, you teared me down.
So what?
Now its time I build myself up.
And stay just that strong.

I CAN DO THIS.
Its all in the head, all in the head!

Well how was I to know that what we carved on stone would be so temporary.

Maybe minghwee was right
What's the point of
forging new friendships
or depending on someone to build you up
only to tear you down.
what's the point.
eventually
all will be lost.

B)

SUN IS IN THE SKY
OH WHY OH WHY WOULD I WANT TO BE ANYWHERE ELSE

SUN IS IN THE SKY
OH WHY OH WHY WOULD I WANT TO BE ANYWHERE ELSE

21/5

Yesterday's movie marathon was definitely thumbs up! Thank you sonia, claire, kevin, jianqing, sipin, jillene, siti, hannah, huzair, aderic and kawchun for making yesterday's night extra extra special :)

I like being all ambiguous and shit.

Somehow I think that, life's too precious to be spent on committing it to just one person. To be in a relationship with someone/making that someone your everything, and giving unto that person the full responsibility/the power of controlling your emotions/limiting your choices in life. Its such a big sacrifice to agree to being with just one person.

Somehow I really want to know
what it's like to really commit.

halfway through

There’s a lot to have taken in over the years. All the smiles, the laughs, the tears, and the frowns. They’ve made us who we are today. The struggles only made us stronger, and the despairs made us wiser. If there’s one thing we should keep with us, it’s that life has it’s purpose, and nothing was put on this planet to bring you down.

Absolutely positively fabulous day spent today with Sonia and schoolmates from 203! The class guys from 03 are thumbs up friendly, and the girls are really cooperative. Made a lot of new friends today so I'm really, very happy :> Getting back our examination scripts tomorrow. I'm nervous as hell, but I'll be proud of whatever results I get back in the subsequent days anyways, because those will be the results that I've put my ultimate best efforts into working hard for. Go me! And all the best to you reading this too. You're welcome! :)

Choir tomorrow! Really looking forward to tomorrow's practice. Just somehow.
And the June holidays are around the corner as well! Not really looking forward to June camp, but I've got to open my heart and accept this new batch of sec 1s and really hope that they'll be able to bring the board to greater heights. Everyone's different in their own way, and I've got to accept the differences and flaws of my juniors just like how my seniors made do with mine. So hopefully, JC'10 will aid me in the process of this ummmmmmmmm acceptance.

So yea.

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“We all have that boy; he’s the boy we try to pretend we aren’t looking for as we make our way to class. He’s the boy that we lie about and claim to not care about anymore. He’s the boy that gives you the cliche butterflies, complete with the weakness in the knees. He’s the boy we’re thinking about as we read this. I think every single girl has this boy, and every single girl will remember him forever- he’s not the one for us, but he’ll always be somewhere in our hearts.”

(:

Basically, there wasn't much to do today after school. Had lunch at KFC with kristie, pj, sh and cindy. Came home and spent the afternoon sitting around doing absolutely nothing except stare into space. Planned to do some reading up on history (semester 2 stuff) but failed miserably :/ At least today I managed to straighten out my overwhelming train of thoughts - the image of you stopping to look at me and waving to me repeated like a gazillion times in my head (literally) and ugh honestly it was just so frustrating. I didn't like that image. I don't want a friend who doesn't care for a friend in need. And doesn't bother listening to both sides of the story before coming to a conclusion as to who really is in the wrong.

Anyways, went out to watch The Last Song and The Back-up Plan yesterday with david, denyse, tosy, angie, evelyn, wz, px, evonne, timothy and the others yesterday at J8. Both movies were great! :)

I'm too much of a weakling.

Feeling down, and you're the first person who comes to mind
I whip out my blackberry and scroll down my contacts list
All the way down to the first alphabet of your name.
I'm halfway through typing the text
"Hey, are you free to chat now?"
And then I start to wonder
perhaps I've been too dependent on you.
And so I drop the text and just bottle it all up.

if there's one thing I'm sure of,
it's that I don't want to be
a burden to you.

I'M SICK AND TIRED OF SAYING AND FEELING LIKE I AM SICK AND TIRED OF EVERYTHING.

Happy

I like randomly bumping into you in school everyday
and walking past your class.
everything about you makes me happy :>

It's not the change you see in the people closest to you that hurts.
what hurts is remembering who they used to be.
But people are bound to change over time.
and as much as how we detest the inevitability of change
we don't have a choice but to deal with it.

Thank you sh, hw, pj, gillian, cindy and rr for making today absolutely positively greaaaaaaat!

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It's just a horrible, uneasy feeling to say goodbye to someone you care about that much.

What if trying your best just isn't enough