Fuck

Life sucks big time.
I hate myself. I hate life. I hate everything.
Did ushering during PTM. I think walking around aimlessly was somewhat fun.
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I don't get you.
And you... I don't think you get me either.
You just think you know me so well but you don't.
I don't understand guys.
As in, people of the opposite sex. As in, males.
What's with them?
First, they try means and ways to show their care and concern for girls, but its just... often misinterpreted.
As in, first they talk to girls 24/7 via sms/msn, and all of a sudden, in school, they just dao them.
Like, wth?
How insensitive can they get? Don't they even care about how we feel?

I confessed, alright?
Then I got rejected. But he said we could still stay as friends.
Are we still friends, really?
I mean, yea, you're stressed out. Yes I can comprehend, I can understand.
But are you so stressed out to the extent that you don't even bother to say hi when you see me?

Its not like I'm desperate to be in a relationship or whatnot.
I honestly just want to be friends.
And whatever, yea, fine, I think the feeling's gone anyways.
Fine, ignore me. Go ahead.
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I don't even get myself.
I can't even maintain friendships well.
Oh fuck, maybe I should just wash my hands off things like these.

I'm just another freak.
Unimportant.
Nonexistent.