Why do I always feel so far away
These days I find myself thoroughly exhausted from doing absolutely nothing.
Today wasn't a good day for me. While I was at the bus stop in the morning while waiting for bus 25 to school, I realized that I had forgotten to bring my wallet and so I had to walk back home from the bus stop to get it. Was almost late for school. Then during PE lesson, I fell down so by the end of PE I had my right knee and my left elbow bruised quite badly :(
For the entire day I was in a dilemma.
Kevin was like, "go go go! go as a friend. It's okay!"
And on the other hand Sonia was like, "you shouldn't go. Trust me you'll get upset if you do go."
But PJ said, "it's your choice."
So I made the decision to go forward and I agreed to attend the party, but I backed out at the last minute.
Just like how I was so prepared to quit debate, but backed out after I knew that the procedure to quit debate isn't as easy as I thought it would be.
If there's one thing I'd hope to accomplish by the end of this year,
it's to have myself muster the courage to face the music.
To fess up to reality instead of always backing out eventually,
or wasting my time wondering why things just never seem to go my way.
Honestly I still am unable to forget what happened the other day after music lesson. Every second of the day I find myself having flashbacks to the least memorable days of my life. Mr Lee wants to meet my parents. Mr Chew had a talk with me and Kristie the other day about our attire. Ms Siva addressed her unhappiness in my recent behavior which she finds upsetting, and reinforced the fact that I have not been fulfilling my role as a student leader in school. I AM SCREWED. I need to buck up.
I just don't see how I've changed, and I am unable to comprehend to what they meant about arrogance... I don't talk much in class, I still do my homework, I still talk to the people I used to talk to, except now I talk to more people inclusive of the people I used to talk to so it isn't as though I have forgotten about them.
I just don't get it.
After dismissal I walked from the classroom to the main gate with syahril & hongwei, then walked from the main gate to the canteen with hongxiang and jianqing, then walked from the canteen to the bus stop with weilin and some other sec 3s, then met kevin at the bus stop and we talked while waiting for our buses. Kevin cheers me up sometimes.
Happy birthday Glen.
Today wasn't a good day for me. While I was at the bus stop in the morning while waiting for bus 25 to school, I realized that I had forgotten to bring my wallet and so I had to walk back home from the bus stop to get it. Was almost late for school. Then during PE lesson, I fell down so by the end of PE I had my right knee and my left elbow bruised quite badly :(
For the entire day I was in a dilemma.
Kevin was like, "go go go! go as a friend. It's okay!"
And on the other hand Sonia was like, "you shouldn't go. Trust me you'll get upset if you do go."
But PJ said, "it's your choice."
So I made the decision to go forward and I agreed to attend the party, but I backed out at the last minute.
Just like how I was so prepared to quit debate, but backed out after I knew that the procedure to quit debate isn't as easy as I thought it would be.
If there's one thing I'd hope to accomplish by the end of this year,
it's to have myself muster the courage to face the music.
To fess up to reality instead of always backing out eventually,
or wasting my time wondering why things just never seem to go my way.
Honestly I still am unable to forget what happened the other day after music lesson. Every second of the day I find myself having flashbacks to the least memorable days of my life. Mr Lee wants to meet my parents. Mr Chew had a talk with me and Kristie the other day about our attire. Ms Siva addressed her unhappiness in my recent behavior which she finds upsetting, and reinforced the fact that I have not been fulfilling my role as a student leader in school. I AM SCREWED. I need to buck up.
I just don't see how I've changed, and I am unable to comprehend to what they meant about arrogance... I don't talk much in class, I still do my homework, I still talk to the people I used to talk to, except now I talk to more people inclusive of the people I used to talk to so it isn't as though I have forgotten about them.
I just don't get it.
After dismissal I walked from the classroom to the main gate with syahril & hongwei, then walked from the main gate to the canteen with hongxiang and jianqing, then walked from the canteen to the bus stop with weilin and some other sec 3s, then met kevin at the bus stop and we talked while waiting for our buses. Kevin cheers me up sometimes.
Happy birthday Glen.
posted by Kaely HKL at
4:08 PM
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