The previous wasn't the last after all, ey?
I'm blogging and there's nothing you can do about it, muahahah.
My motto or whatever you call it has changed from "Expect the best, be prepared for the worst, fuck what others think and do your own thing" to "Cos life's too precious to mope or to be sad of so I'm being happy like the birds and the bees!".
So I was thinking- Do I really need a new target? Honestly I don't want to be heartbroken again ahhhh I hate emoing. I get all pessimistic and irritable when I emo to the extent that I start to chastise myself for like always doing stupid things for people I like. He'll come some day I think. If there's fate :/ I'm only 12 anyways. Perhaps I'm too young? o.o Yea I am. Bleah even if I do get a boyfriend there's really a high possibility that the reason to our break up would be because I'm too clingy, then it'd be stupid if I do cry over the guy. Like you know I cling to people and stick to them like the north and south poles of a magnet when I like them. As in literally lah, except I'm not attractive lol wth. Eeeep I sound paranoid and desperate -.-
Come to think of it why can't I just like someone if I do and just be friends if I don't? Why do I care so much about your opinions? Why do I care so much about how you feel? Why do I care if you think that what I'm doing is wrong and if you've got a bad impression of me or even if you've got the wrong idea? Its my life isn't it? Like how my papa has the final say in the family I have the final say when it comes to making serious decisions in my life right? I mean that's the way I want it to be but somehow that's not how it is. Why do I always feel the necessity to get facts and points right, why do I always feel that its essential to correct someone should that person be in the wrong? Why do I like to complicate things?
Complexity and simplicity hmmmmmmm.
I don't know what I'm talking about again haha.
Bleah I wish I could just think less blog less and study more.
Study time, byebye!
My motto or whatever you call it has changed from "Expect the best, be prepared for the worst, fuck what others think and do your own thing" to "Cos life's too precious to mope or to be sad of so I'm being happy like the birds and the bees!".
So I was thinking- Do I really need a new target? Honestly I don't want to be heartbroken again ahhhh I hate emoing. I get all pessimistic and irritable when I emo to the extent that I start to chastise myself for like always doing stupid things for people I like. He'll come some day I think. If there's fate :/ I'm only 12 anyways. Perhaps I'm too young? o.o Yea I am. Bleah even if I do get a boyfriend there's really a high possibility that the reason to our break up would be because I'm too clingy, then it'd be stupid if I do cry over the guy. Like you know I cling to people and stick to them like the north and south poles of a magnet when I like them. As in literally lah, except I'm not attractive lol wth. Eeeep I sound paranoid and desperate -.-
Come to think of it why can't I just like someone if I do and just be friends if I don't? Why do I care so much about your opinions? Why do I care so much about how you feel? Why do I care if you think that what I'm doing is wrong and if you've got a bad impression of me or even if you've got the wrong idea? Its my life isn't it? Like how my papa has the final say in the family I have the final say when it comes to making serious decisions in my life right? I mean that's the way I want it to be but somehow that's not how it is. Why do I always feel the necessity to get facts and points right, why do I always feel that its essential to correct someone should that person be in the wrong? Why do I like to complicate things?
Complexity and simplicity hmmmmmmm.
I don't know what I'm talking about again haha.
Bleah I wish I could just think less blog less and study more.
Study time, byebye!
posted by Kaely HKL at
4:26 PM
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