Its all in the past.

Sometimes it’s hard to look in the mirror, to see that face that everyone says is so pretty but it just looks plain to me. Sometimes it’s easier to wake up and forget my dreams because of life, but I know I can't do that. Sometimes, I feel that the easiest thing to do in life is to be depressed. On the other hand, the hardest thing to do is to get up and say to myself that things will get better even though I'm never convinced by that. But it helps to pretend. Sometimes I sit back and watch everyone cry out for attention, and I think, why go to that length to get attention? Maybe they really need it? Sometimes, I wake up in the morning and say to myself, “If I give up today, I promise I’ll always get back up tomorrow & try again.” 'Cos sometimes trying to be a saint and being there for those who actually need my attention makes it easier to look in that mirror. I just feel so but I won't tell you why so go figure out for yourself :) Some of you might have read this part of my post in my facebook profile. Well, I just felt like posting it again, no reason why.

Seriously speaking, sometimes its best to let bygones be bygones. I mean, so what if he once made you cry for more than an hour and if she once stabbed you in the back after you put all your trust in her? It's all in a past. Why bear grudges? Why not let them go and just go back to being friends? Why let trivial matters ruin your friendship with that particular person? Why do you find yourself constantly harping unnecessarily on what happened in past, that you were really unhappy about? Why do you like to cry about it and even let those little incidents affect your entire life? Why choose to have an abstract reliance on what people around you do/say to make or break your day, or even your entire life? It obviously ain't easy to let go, and I'm not oblivious to the fact that learning to let go requires an insane amount of emotional effort. But things take time to heal. All this wouldn't have happened if people knew that they shouldn’t be reckless with other people’s hearts anyways.Strange as it seems, he's the one I'm after.