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Sports Day!

Sports day was thumbs up! CLAIRE RUNS FAST, LIKE AT THE SPEED OF LIGHTNING ZOOMZOOMZOOM.

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Blogging since it's Friday :)

Yesterday was greaaaat. Jianqing gave me tips for the physics speed quiz and Hongwei gave me tips for the geography test yesterday during recess. Thanks guys! :) Went for lunch with 02 people after school at LJS, then went to the coffee shop with PW group members to collect cans! I had a lot of fun yesterday :)

Today felt like one of the better days! Woke up much earlier than usual to meet PJ and the both of us studied geography together at the canteen till about 7, then I left for keypress duty with Denise and Lumyi. Spent recess studying with Denyse in the library. Geography test was alright, I think I'll do better for this test in comparison to the previous test which I failed, so yay! Thanks Hongwei :) And after school I had lunch with Denise at the coffee shop, then the both of us went to the SLR to slack and study until I had to leave for choir at 3. Choir was fun as usual! Went to buy bubble tea after choir, bought bubble tea for Kevin. NOT GLEN. Ask Eunise buy for him lah. I should stop being so bitchy :/ okay then anyways talked to Jianqing and Kevin then walked to the bus stop with Jihao, Kristie and a guy I made friends with today who doesn't want to tell me his name HAHA.

Okay bye :)

New term, new beginnings! :)

I'm officially this term's keypress IC, so that means I won't have to do duty discretely anymore just like how I've been doing so for the past month! Yaaaaaay very happy :) Drama lesson was fun as usual, studied during recess duty today with Sonia, had a lot a lot a lot a lot a lot of fun during assembly/CE with Hongwei, Hongxiang, Jianqing, Syahril, Adrian, David and Kevin. Never laughed so hard before HAHAHA.

Going to call Denyse later! I've got so much to tell her. Dislike odd weeks cos I hardly get to spend time with her ): But it's okay yea! :)

Today marks the start of 2010's T2W1 so since examinations start T2W7 then guess what, WE'RE ONLY 48 DAYS AWAY FROM MYES.

And so this will be my last post till then.
Goodbye people, good luck for MYEs!
I don't want to be at the bottom, and so I'll do all it takes to make my way to the top.

Great day

Yesterday was great as usual! Spent the entire day doing homework and additional revision while the rest of my family did some spring cleaning. The house looks so clean now, I like it :D At the later part of the day my dad drove us to the salvation army where we dumped our bags of old and unwanted clothing, bags and magazines. Then after that my dad drove us to potong pasir for really good dinner at a restaurant which "dares to care" because apparently the restaurant is owned by a mother whose daughter is physically able but has some mental difficulties and is unable to find a job anywhere else because of her education level or something so the daughter works there along with other people who are in the similar situation as her. Basically the restaurant recruits mentally handicapped people so at least such people will still have a job and will still be able to support themselves financially. At least that's what I think haha. I think the idea's really cool anyways :) We went to my uncle's place for a family gathering with my other relatives after that and I watched the telly with my grandma while my other cousins went out to play. Grandma's so funny when she watches tv 'cos like when a particular character she dislikes is on telly she starts throwing her oranges at the screen and she shouts "huai ren! huai ren!" HAHAHAHA so cute.

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Spent the entire day on the computer
Couldn't bear to get my butt off the chair
Couldn't bear to take my eyes off the screen
Oh dear this cannot go on
I need to stop
And start on
HOMEWORKKKKKKKKKKKKK~

Put your hands up, put your hands up!

Content.

I have bangs now! And I quite like it :)

Went to school on Wednesday for the group discussion with Desiree, Eunice and Jolynn. EUNISE COULDN'T COME. DON'T KNOW WHY LEH. OH YEA, she went to do her PW! Then she went to the library with her boyfriend! Okay haha I should stop. Finished everything by around 4 and as I was on my way to the bus stop, I met dearest Huiwen at the bubble tea shop! Talked for a bit and then the both of us decided to make our way to Hougang mall's library to slack. Slacked in the library until I got quite hungry so we went to KFC to eat. Then I saw Jianqing! I think he saw me too. I'm not sure. And when I got home I organized my bookshelf, did some more filing and dumped all my files in a corner of the room, and cleaned out all the rubbish from my bags. Then I snuggled up into my blankets and slept till my parents got back home from work with dinner.

Yesterday was fabulous. Spent the entire day with my brother and mom. The first thing we did was go swimming at SS! Swam about 30 laps, then it started raining so we got chased out of the pool. Went back home, changed into a different set of clothes and went to watch The Lovely Bones at around 1.30pm. The movie was thumbs up. I sat at seat K10! :) Then after the movie we went shopping at somerset and I bought heap loads of stuff. And so I am very, very happy. After shopping at somerset we went shopping at paragon. And after shopping at paragon we had dinner at fish & co. I liked the food very, very much :D After dinner my mom told my brother and I that we're going to NYC again to visit aunt Charis at the end of this year! Provided I do well in school. Woopwoop I'll definitely work really hard for something like that :) Went back home after that.

And today I was supposed to meet the others at 0845 but I overslept and woke up at 0939 to find 10 missed calls from PJ... Sorry Shihui, PJ, HW & Nat! :(

Today marks a day closer to the end of the March holidays! So sad but honestly 2010's March holidays has been an absolutely positively superb one so far :) Homework's done except for mathematics + translation for chinese ATT + revision for geography test. Gotta hurry by the end of today yea, so I'm off now. Goodbye! :)

Loved.

All along I thought I was strong enough to be able to suppress all those intense feelings for forever, all along I thought I could keep everything to myself and hurt without anyone knowing.

I was up crying all night till I had no more tears left to shed. Then came some sort of quietness which made me feel as if nothing was ever going to happen again. And after I read your text I felt some sort of assurance because you told me not to be upset and that you and the other guys were going to be there for me no matter what. I knew part of that statement wasn't going to be true, but still for a moment I actually felt good. I hadn't felt like that in a while. I poured every discontentment I felt out to you, and I'm so glad I could do so as a friend even after what happened :) I felt loved yesterday night. Love from PJ, Denyse, Jianqing, Kristie, Tosy, Sonia, Hongwei, Justin and so many other people whom I love as well. Thanks people

And yesterday night I realized that hey, you know, there are so many friends I have whom I love, who love me too and who want the best for and from me. So you, you one little horrible liar, you are not going to bring me down. You are insufficient. You are nothing to me. And you are nothing to everyone else except to those who have not seen your true colors and to that blind volleyball asshole.

So what if the confrontation failed, right? At least I had the courage to make that confrontation. To highlight your mistakes and to show you that I'm not someone to be trifled with, or to be treated in such a way. I'm not your punchbag. I'm not going to be your scapegoat either.

And even though it may seem a little bhb to say it here, Justin's right. What I did was really noble. The decision I made to not forsake the happiness of 3 people for my own, was really noble :) Yay Kaely!

While I cried Cassandra's tweet popped up on echofon and her tweet read that at the end of the day, all we have is tomorrow morning.

Tomorrow morning,
along with the rest of the day
and all the other days to come after that
to change everything,
to make everything
much much much better.

♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡

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I should stop blogging about feeling good
or great weekends or awesome streaks of amazing days,
because I end up jinxing everything.
Last night I was just thinking.
Hey I haven't felt sad in a while!
and now, this.

Perhaps I've been too forgiving.

Happier

Gillian took this photo from Shine hahaha we all look so happy :) I smiled looking at this photo. Today has been a lovely day, partly because there was choir today ♡♡♡ We had a workshop and it was thumbs up. After choir I had dinner with mabu, tosy, lewis, xt, samantha and camille. Gossip session again! And we celebrated Lewis' birthday as well after dinner. Happy birthday Lewis!

Watching Alice In Wonderland tomorrow with PJ! Just the two of us HAHAHA can't wait to watch the movie :) but it's so eggspensive, like $11 per ticket. Basically 11 is a horrible number because it's your jersey number. IN OTHER WORDS, YOU SPOIL EVERYTHING. INCLUDING NUMBERS. Anyways Sonia's joining us after the movie, then the three of us will be doing some shopping together. Eggcited!

Holidays

Shine was great, all the girls looked stunning in their lovely dresses Especially PJ! The guys were all dressed up too, didn't take any pictures though. David was so adorable at certain parts of the musical and the pig suits are so cute. Camp was enjoyable. I ate a lot today. Messaging people now.

:)

1. Clear my bedroom
2. Complete at least half of holiday homework before camp and the other half after camp.
3. Chinese ATT
4. Langarts ATT
5. Revise for tests
6. Tuition homework
7. Read 2 books
8. Go swimming
9. Catch a movie with someone/go out with someone.
10. Go cycling
11. Go shopping
12. Rest well, at least 10 hours of sleep everyday.
13. Write
14. Go to the gym
15. Study
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1, 2, 3 WOOP WOOP I AM ILL. I went to school today though, but was sent back home after assembly. And yesterday night I got all tensed up thinking of what might happen during music lesson today because honestly I still am so afraid of Mrs Yeap. Was sent back home anyways so I didn't go for music lesson in the end. So happy/relieved And the mc I received states that I'm excused from 2 days of schooooooool! (!!!!!!!!) And so I might not be going to school tomorrow as well, but I'll still be going for the Shine musical anyways. So eggcited!
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CCM test yesterday was mad easy, partly because everyone could cheat and get away with it. We could talk loudly, break out in guffaws and show each other our papers or make obvious hand gestures to each other and not get caught.

In the worksheet we were told to translate the words "turn left". Huiwen sat beside me and so she whispered, "turn left!" and so I turned my head to the left. Then huiwen was like, "no turn left turn left!!!!" and I was like "What? Huh?" and I just kept looking to my left. Then huiwen was like "look at your paper!" and the question asking us to translate "turn left" from english to malay literally stared back at me and so the both of us broke out in huge guffaws. Kent was like "Kaely your face is so red!" HAHAHAHA.

Okay bye.

Why do I always feel so far away

These days I find myself thoroughly exhausted from doing absolutely nothing.

Today wasn't a good day for me. While I was at the bus stop in the morning while waiting for bus 25 to school, I realized that I had forgotten to bring my wallet and so I had to walk back home from the bus stop to get it. Was almost late for school. Then during PE lesson, I fell down so by the end of PE I had my right knee and my left elbow bruised quite badly :(

For the entire day I was in a dilemma.
Kevin was like, "go go go! go as a friend. It's okay!"
And on the other hand Sonia was like, "you shouldn't go. Trust me you'll get upset if you do go."
But PJ said, "it's your choice."
So I made the decision to go forward and I agreed to attend the party, but I backed out at the last minute.

Just like how I was so prepared to quit debate, but backed out after I knew that the procedure to quit debate isn't as easy as I thought it would be.

If there's one thing I'd hope to accomplish by the end of this year,
it's to have myself muster the courage to face the music.
To fess up to reality instead of always backing out eventually,
or wasting my time wondering why things just never seem to go my way.

Honestly I still am unable to forget what happened the other day after music lesson. Every second of the day I find myself having flashbacks to the least memorable days of my life. Mr Lee wants to meet my parents. Mr Chew had a talk with me and Kristie the other day about our attire. Ms Siva addressed her unhappiness in my recent behavior which she finds upsetting, and reinforced the fact that I have not been fulfilling my role as a student leader in school. I AM SCREWED. I need to buck up.

I just don't see how I've changed, and I am unable to comprehend to what they meant about arrogance... I don't talk much in class, I still do my homework, I still talk to the people I used to talk to, except now I talk to more people inclusive of the people I used to talk to so it isn't as though I have forgotten about them.

I just don't get it.

After dismissal I walked from the classroom to the main gate with syahril & hongwei, then walked from the main gate to the canteen with hongxiang and jianqing, then walked from the canteen to the bus stop with weilin and some other sec 3s, then met kevin at the bus stop and we talked while waiting for our buses. Kevin cheers me up sometimes.

Happy birthday Glen.

tip-toeing around, afraid to upset the balance of things

I build myself up and fly around in circles.
Wait then as my heart drops and my back begins to tingle.
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Dislike the fact that there will be a CCM test this Wednesday which is a complete waste of time and that there will be CCM remedial lessons for students who score badly for this test. CCM tests, textbooks and lessons equate to wasting paper and time. Walao eh so frustrating la.
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I don't want to talk about the both of you anymore. I don't know why I kept talking about the both of you today but right now I'm sick and tired of having myself harp on whatever happened in the past or why you left me for her or the actual reason as to how the both of you even got together to that stage in less than a week when it took you a month to get to me. I don't want to care so much about the future either, I don't want to place a bet or spend my time thinking how long the both of you will last because to me, what really matters is that RIGHT NOW, the both of you are happy together and that the both of you are going really strong. And my life as well as my blog was but it isn't going to be all about the both of you either, so this will be the last post about the both of you. Because enough is enough.
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All my relatives from my mom's side. HUGE HUH.
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Initially decided to have lunch at pepper lunch at hougang mall after school today together with 202 classmates but it was full house at pepper lunch and our tummies were grumbling but everyone had different opinions as to where to lunch at besides pepper lunch. Some wanted subway while some wanted pizza hut, some wanted long johns' while some wanted macs. Shihui was so adorable, she was like "it's just lunch!" hahaha. We eventually lunched at subway anyways. Did not want to lunch at subway as first but I had some meatball sandwich anyways and it was yummy :)

Bought Claudia's birthday present
And Kevin says he likes his care bear, heehee.
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You can sky rocket away from me
And never come back if you find another galaxy
Far from here, with more room to fly
Just leave me your stardust to remember you by

All over.

Happy birthday wifey

And I've finally found the quote about good things falling apart for better things to fall in place.

“People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when their right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.”
— Marilyn Monroe

Yesterday my older brother came charging into my room bellowing the words OMG LASER GUNS PEW PEW PEW (click).Then he showed me the website and so yea apparently it's a game about a squirrel with a goldfish bowl over its head wielding a laser gun prancing around in outer space.

Your losing me is what you've won.

No matter what circumstances life throws in your direction, you have to believe that you can handle it. It’s really about our perception. There’s no such thing as a bad circumstance. All those things we perceive as bad are actually real growing experience in life. You have to see that everything that happens to you has come into your life for a reason, an we are challenged in life because that’s what life is all about. Life’s about how we deal with those challenges.

Everyday the same bullshit.
It's more stress.

And here's to you.

I’m going to stop dwelling. I’m going to stop waiting for a text that will never come. I’m going to stop hoping. I’m going to move on. I’m going to meet other people, better guys, much better friends. I’m going to live happily. I’m going to forget all the nights I spent wishing you were here. I’m going to delete all your texts. I’m going to forget all the times I opened myself up to let you in, to only get hurt in return. I’m going to forget how I felt about you. And I’m going to walk tall. But in between everything I will forget, I won’t forget the lesson I’ve learned. I won’t forget the feeling of loving someone. I won’t forget the feeling of thinking I’m loved. And I will certainly not forget the hell I was put through to learn all this to become a better person.

And so I guess my heart is going back on the shelf for awhile.
I’m going to try to be a stronger person.
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Still tired from yesterday's MOE excel fest. Ate two free tubs of vanilla ice-cream. Walked around in over-sized flats for almost twelve hours straight, and at the end of the day I found my feet to be covered with tiny little blisters. My throat feels a little sore from all the talking too. Wonder what I missed out yesterday in school/choir.

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Today was great. Washed cans after school together with Claudia, Eunise, PJ, and Roline, together with some other people. It was belly fun :D Bought Kevin's belated birthday present yesterday, and I'm doing the card to go along with the present right now. I have no choice but to use construction paper to wrap his present 'cos all the wrapping papers I have are all filled with heart shapes HAHAHA so yea. Hope he likes his present. Alright bye!

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There’s only so many times you can allow someone to let you down before you can’t handle the disappointment anymore. When things change, people change. There’s a point in life where you get tired of chasing everyone trying to fix things... but it’s not giving up.

You’ve got to do what’s right for you, even if it hurts.

So,

Hm I didn't know yesterday was the last day of February..
Time flies :(

Today was a fairly good day. We had our first Chemistry lesson today, it wasn't much. Just some basic introduction & the typical rules and such. Got back my biology pop quiz as well; was hoping for a 10/10 but got a 7/10 instead. Mm at least I tried.

And that's good enough.