Loved.

All along I thought I was strong enough to be able to suppress all those intense feelings for forever, all along I thought I could keep everything to myself and hurt without anyone knowing.

I was up crying all night till I had no more tears left to shed. Then came some sort of quietness which made me feel as if nothing was ever going to happen again. And after I read your text I felt some sort of assurance because you told me not to be upset and that you and the other guys were going to be there for me no matter what. I knew part of that statement wasn't going to be true, but still for a moment I actually felt good. I hadn't felt like that in a while. I poured every discontentment I felt out to you, and I'm so glad I could do so as a friend even after what happened :) I felt loved yesterday night. Love from PJ, Denyse, Jianqing, Kristie, Tosy, Sonia, Hongwei, Justin and so many other people whom I love as well. Thanks people

And yesterday night I realized that hey, you know, there are so many friends I have whom I love, who love me too and who want the best for and from me. So you, you one little horrible liar, you are not going to bring me down. You are insufficient. You are nothing to me. And you are nothing to everyone else except to those who have not seen your true colors and to that blind volleyball asshole.

So what if the confrontation failed, right? At least I had the courage to make that confrontation. To highlight your mistakes and to show you that I'm not someone to be trifled with, or to be treated in such a way. I'm not your punchbag. I'm not going to be your scapegoat either.

And even though it may seem a little bhb to say it here, Justin's right. What I did was really noble. The decision I made to not forsake the happiness of 3 people for my own, was really noble :) Yay Kaely!

While I cried Cassandra's tweet popped up on echofon and her tweet read that at the end of the day, all we have is tomorrow morning.

Tomorrow morning,
along with the rest of the day
and all the other days to come after that
to change everything,
to make everything
much much much better.

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